Personal Particulars Form

Whenever it comes to the part of Marital Status I often get confused whats my actual status. Am I a divorcee or a widow. Im ashamed of myself. I didnt ask for what has happen,it just happen because we can't save it anymore. :(

Gd morning world

As I woke up,I feel so unease with my environment. I feel so desperate,wanting to know if there are still a piece of love for me. I feel so down,I wanna give up. But I need to be strong. But not to force myself. Its not easy to live this way of life everyday. Its easy for him to say. How long I can keep it up.? How long Clare.?

Late night thought

As I was lying on my bed I keep on thinking the things that hurt me the most. I keep on rewinding all the conversation between them on my head.
Should I give up on them on you. Nobody can give me the exact answer that I want.
That now we are planning for our big day,he ask me is this what I want,Yes this is want I want to be with you and there was no second thought. Do you have a second thought?? Only God knows.

Confusing Moments

The moment we said now was that to focus with ourselves, I keep on seeing unexpected things in your call logs and your messenger. How should I ignore all that. I don't know what your mind was thinking of and what your heart wants now. 

Today's Talk

Emotionally I'm done, 

Mentally I'm drained,

Physically, I smile. 

How I wish I can turn back time, where I shouldn't be too much ego then all this will not happen again twice. This time it hurts so much. You might think I'm crazy being in a swing mood everyday but you will never understand how I felt. Knowing someone that you know betray you and tell others their are special then me. 

I'm trying to forgive and forget but when I saw her name appear in your phone it is like been hit by a car and I don't know how to react in that situation.